you take everything

You take everything
absolutely everything I have
and a little bit more. 

Every ounce of strength
every waking and half waking moment
until I’m doubting
doubting everything.
Until I don’t know the hour
day or month.
Until I can’t even count to five
to fill your bottle.
Until the washing machine is full
of dirty cups
And the oven full of dirty clothes.
Until I can stand up no more.
Until I don’t know my name.
I don’t know me. 

Because you took it all.
As that is what I offered. 


Inspired by : no sleep

actually

Actually
you intrigue me now
even more dear husband.
Now he has come from you. 

From your slightly scruffy beard
and slightly too long hair
ruffled brow
and middle aged tum. 

Actually
I love you more dear husband
when I think of our wonderful son.
The qualities that you gave
and now encourage.
Those parts, that perhaps
time has unfairly faded in you. 

Another chance, another chance
has been given.
A way back to yourself again.
A true you
unburdened by time. 


inspired by snoozing husband and son