basking

Where else would you be
except here.
A king size made for three
sometimes four
when the night terrors wake.
Open all hours
for comfort and nurture.
You lie central
arms outstretched
Queen of the new world
basking
in the warmth
in the aura of love.

shower

I’m staring absently
in the shower
as the water
cascades down
over and over. 

The droplets
splash the bathtub
in a of pattern
of sparkling
excitement
again and again. 

They remind me
of a moonlit beach
dancing on a
moonlit beach
from long ago. 

A memory
almost forgotten. 

Inspired by: another long night 

you take everything

You take everything
absolutely everything I have
and a little bit more. 

Every ounce of strength
every waking and half waking moment
until I’m doubting
doubting everything.
Until I don’t know the hour
day or month.
Until I can’t even count to five
to fill your bottle.
Until the washing machine is full
of dirty cups
And the oven full of dirty clothes.
Until I can stand up no more.
Until I don’t know my name.
I don’t know me. 

Because you took it all.
As that is what I offered. 


Inspired by : no sleep

hello mummies

Hello mummies out there
In the middle of the night
Sitting up feeding baby
Time standing still around you. 

Hello mummies out there
Staring into the night.
Rubbing backs for burps
and settling tums
Time and time again. 

Hello mummies out there
I blow you a silent kiss
I’m here with you
Loving, feeding, growing. 

Inspired by : another long newborn night 

moonlight

The moonlight streams in
once again enticing me
to places not yet seen.
Conjuring adventures on far off lands
in corners it’s delicate rays conceal.

The moonlight draws me in
hypnotically
like a spider to its web
through delicate whisps
of steel strength.

Not this time moonlight.
Your promise shall not be fulfilled.
My adventure is here.
Not by candlelight, nor starry breeze
But by the glow of my babies’ nightlights.

Inspired by : a full moon

sleep training 

Oh crikey
That smile
by moonlight.
The most wondrous
sight ever seen
I know I’m not meant
to notice
to acknowledge
to respond.
As it should be
back to bed
instantly.

But it’s irresistible
In the moonlight.
As my face
spontaneously replies
and I whisper
not now my darling
hoping no one has seen.


Inspired by : another long night

everyone is asleep, except me

Everyone is asleep, except me,
our newborn daughter upon my chest,
comforted by the rhythm of my heart
she knows so well.
Our toddler son, in his big boy bed
still cocooned in your arms
as you raced each other to the land of nod
through story time.

Your snores I can hear,
intertwined,
through the monitor.

Everyone is asleep, except me
And I’m grateful.

 

Inspired by: the first few nights as a mum of two